Kill The Vibes…
What you’ll see is what some of us have heard — the voices, the whispers. We share them to expose them. Most have come from episodes of drug-induced psychosis, or in the residual aftermath; some during stress and throughout recovery. Some of us haven’t heard them at all, but have spiritual beliefs that align with experiences of the dark side of addiction and the internal narratives they create (the way we speak to ourselves).
The way in which we have worked to expose them here is through exploring the sense that some seemed to carry a consciousness varied and distinct from our own. Our understandings and opinions may differ, but whatever the cause or context, we believe the experience itself is worthy of being shared.
They have caused some of us fear, paranoia, confusion, and great distraction. They can cause shame and isolation due to the stigma associated with these sorts of experiences. We thought it was worth getting some of this out there, as the content of these experiences is rarely spoken about without some form of judgement. If this causes you any discomfort, please refer to our take-home messages.
If you would like to share your experiences, or have content you would like to add, we welcome your contribution. This is primarily for those who come after us — to see it’s nothing to hide and can be shared. Do not suffer in silence. It’s not normal, but we want to explore and expose the toxicity of it all, create from it, challenge it, and take the piss a bit — sharing is caring.
This content may be challenging or triggering - Please refer to our take home messages if this is the case for you.
we will destroy you... we will have you killed... when you least expect it...
What the fuck are you looking at?....
look at him, he's disgusting... you're fucking disgusting ...
we will destroy you... we will have you killed... when you least expect it... What the fuck are you looking at?.... look at him, he's disgusting... you're fucking disgusting ...
The Voices … (some of)
You are fucking disgusting...
You're the most disgusting... despicable... etc, etc
You are the most insensitive...
You deserve to die....
You are fucking disgusting... You're the most disgusting... despicable... etc, etc You are the most insensitive... You deserve to die....
Everything you have worked for...
Your entire network...
We will ruin everything...
When you least expect it....
You'll see...
Just you wait...
when you least expect it....
Everything you have worked for... Your entire network... We will ruin everything... When you least expect it.... You'll see... Just you wait... when you least expect it....
You dont deserve friends...
You dont deserve...
You don't deserve to have anything nice...
You don't deserve to be loved...
You don't deserve to be liked...
You don't deserve anything.
You dont deserve friends... You dont deserve... You don't deserve to have anything nice... You don't deserve to be loved... You don't deserve to be liked... You don't deserve anything.
Never underestimate us...
We are very powerful..
We can control others too...
Unimaginable power... Unimaginable consequences....
When you least expect it...
Never underestimate us... We are very powerful.. We can control others too... Unimaginable power... Unimaginable consequences.... When you least expect it...
This is your mother's spirit... (what's his mothers name?)...
this is exactly what we want him to do...
I am your neighbour.., (what's his neighbours name?)...
Look at what he's doing... he thinks he's so smart...
Why is he doing that... Who does he think he is...
I'm your highest power...
This is your mother's spirit... (what's his mothers name?)... this is exactly what we want him to do... I am your neighbour.., (what's his neighbours name?)... Look at what he's doing... he thinks he's so smart... Why is he doing that... Who does he think he is... I'm your highest power...
You dont have to do this...
We are learning much from you...
Everything...
This is exactly as predicated...
See, he is evil....
You dont have to do this... We are learning much from you... Everything... This is exactly as predicated... See, he is evil....
Do not underestimate us... We are very powerful.... We are very intelligent
Be very careful...
Do not underestimate us... We are very powerful.... We are very intelligent Be very careful...
We will drive you back into addiction...
You deserve to suffer...
You will see....
You belong with us....
We will drive you back into addiction... You deserve to suffer... You will see.... You belong with us....
Stop arguing with us....
You're psychotic...
Stop responding... You're schizophrenic...
Stop arguing with us.... You're psychotic... Stop responding... You're schizophrenic...
Watch this space…
One of our members created a list of truths after many months spent arguing with his voices and listening to their constant antagonising threats — or bluffs, as he now refers to them. Crackers, eh? Some of his voices are behind the content you see above… nasty shit.
Anyway, although he no longer hears them, he feels his experience was a dark spiritual one. Whatever the case, this is what he used to combat the nonsense he heard from the voices around him — he would hit them with some truths to which they’d respond with what you see below… mostly rambling complaints amongst more bluff.
For him, it kept them contained (along with self-care and connection). They would argue with him for months… until one day, they didn’t.
Crazy shit to some — super interesting to us, and we love to create from this stuff. Just in case there is evil out there somewhere, we want to expose it & give it hell.
refer to the take home messages - you may need meds
He is exposimg us...
Mother Fucker...
Stop exposing us... Why is he doing this to us.... shut the fuck up.... we will destroy everything...
He's antagonising us... he keeps antagonising us.... stop antagonising us....
He is exposimg us... Mother Fucker... Stop exposing us... Why is he doing this to us.... shut the fuck up.... we will destroy everything... He's antagonising us... he keeps antagonising us.... stop antagonising us....
Imitation is the closest they get to life... They feed on reaction, not reality...
No more than a voice...
Compulsive, not commanding...
Cowards...
Allergic to truth... Fearful and Desperate...
They deny what undoes them...
Bluff their only refuge...
Never to be taken seriously....
Confusion masquerading as confidence...
Cowards...
Mocking but insecure...
Parasites not predators...
Pathetic rather than formidable...
Farces, not forces... Cowards, not commanders.... They perform power, they do not possess it...
Cowards...
Imitation is the closest they get to life... They feed on reaction, not reality... No more than a voice... Compulsive, not commanding... Cowards... Allergic to truth... Fearful and Desperate... They deny what undoes them... Bluff their only refuge... Never to be taken seriously.... Confusion masquerading as confidence... Cowards... Mocking but insecure... Parasites not predators... Pathetic rather than formidable... Farces, not forces... Cowards, not commanders.... They perform power, they do not possess it... Cowards...
Mother Fucker... He is exposing us.... Why is he doing this to us?!
This is a disaster...
We are failing to drive him back into his addiction....
Mother Fucker... He is exposing us.... Why is he doing this to us?! This is a disaster... We are failing to drive him back into his addiction....
Why are you doing this to us?!!
He has exposed us… he does not care what happens to us!!
Mother fucker!!
WE ARE NOT COWARDS!!
We will set you on fire!
You will pay very dearly for this!
You think this is funny?!!!
We will not tolerate this!!
We don’t deserve this!!
We will destroy you!
Why is he doing this to us?!
Just you wait!!!
This is not supposed to happen!!!
Take Home Messages…
Take care of yourself, others and what you have
Recovery is a lifelong journey
Stay connected
Share your experiences
Draw from it later or now… & get in touch
Drugs and Alcohol are terrible for us
Take real meds instead (if/as prescribed)
12 step programs have helped many of us